31 March 2010


Hello,

You are asleep upstairs in your nursery in the woodland friends swing we bought for you. I miss you, but you need a nap, so I'll talk to you on here.

When you are older I'm sure you will wonder why it is we call you "bug". We've taken to calling you "Emma-bug" from the very beginning I think. I started calling you "Boogie-bug" when you started to get the wiggles. I'm not sure exactly what prompted it. I might have been your tiny body with those big beautiful eyes you got from your Daddy. I think it may have also been that you look like a little caterpillar when we swaddle you, because you are a long little baby and you won't allow us to swaddle your legs, just your arms. Anyway, you are our little "bug" and we love you very much!

~Mommy

25 March 2010

Dear Emma,

I love talking with you. You are nine-almost-ten weeks old and you can't say much but "ah" and the occasional "ee", but you say them with such variation it's amazing. Your "ah" sounds different whether you are trying to get my attention, hollering at a toy, or excited in mid conversation. Pretty much all this week, I have laid you on my tummy on in my lap and we've just said "ah" and "ee" back and forth at each other. I of course add in things like "Emm-mah!" in the hopes that you will learn your name. I also say "I love you" and describe what you are doing to you. You just eat it up!

<3 Mommy
Dear Emma,

Yesterday I laid you down on your playmat. You were much more interested in the toys hanging over your head than you used to be. You set your gaze on a bright red rattle and wiggled a bit. Two weeks ago I started reaching your hand out for you so you could touch it. I guess you put two and two together, because you started swatting at it really hard and finally got it. I shouted "Yay!" and clapped my hands for you. Which made you smile really big. You kept trying over and over to do it again and got it a few more times. In between the times you were successful you hollered at it with your little baby squeaks. "Ah! Ahhh!" I don't know what you were saying, but I think you were having a great time. Now you think you can reach out and touch anything you see. You are trying to reach the lamp across the room and my purple shirt sleeve in front of you. Mommy is getting smacked by your tiny little arms quite a bit, but it's adorable.

Today, you realized you have feet. You were sitting on my lap and making noises with me, when you looked down and all of a sudden, there they were! You made a face like you had never seen such things before and stared at them for a few minutes with that face, while I wished I had a camera to take your picture.

Now you are trying to swat at your feet. I'm sure you will reach them eventually.

I love you.

~Mommy

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On Distant Shores

I have toiled for countless years and ever felt the cost, and I've been burned by this world's cold, like leaves beneath the frost. On my knees I've crawled to You, bleeding myself dry. But the price of life is more, than I could ever buy.

And off of the blocks I was headstrong and proud, at the front of the line for the card-carrying high-browed, with both eyes fastened tight, yet unscarred from the fight, running at full tilt my sword pulled from its hilt. It's funny how these things can slip away, our frail deeds, the last will wave goodbye. It's funny how the hope will bleed away the citadels we build and fortify. Goodbye!

Night came and I broke my stride. I swallowed hard but never cried. When grace was easy to forget, I'd denounce the hypocrites. Casting first stones. Killing my own.

Then You would unscale my blind eyes and I stood battered but more wise. Fighting to accelerate. Shaking free from crippling weight. With resilience unsurpassed, I crawled my way to you at last. And on my knees, I wept at your feet. I finally believed that You still love me.

~On Distant Shores by Five Iron Frenzy

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