16 July 2010

I Thought That I Could Fly...

Happy Six Months Old Baby Bug!



You've grown sooooo much and I can't believe you are six months old already!
I love you, my daughter. You will always be a blessing.

~Mommy

Jehovah Jireh, My Provider...

I have to admit that I was a little nervous about quitting my job to stay at home with Emma. I said over and over again that "God will take care of us, I know He will." I was learning to trust Him myself, not just telling that to the people who thought I was crazy.

He really has taken care of us! We got a bill in the mail yesterday, and I called to ask what it was about, because we didn't have the money to pay for it. The lady on the phone just said, "I'll take care of that for you. Don't worry about it." I was so happy.

I often wonder where all of the money that I used to make went. Our income was literally cut in half, yet even with one more family member, we are still faring well, thanks to God providing for us. If we didn't "need" that money then, I wonder what we would do with it now if we still had it? I hope to be a better steward of what God gives us in the future.

12 July 2010

He's Always Sayin' He's My Biggest Fan...

My tummy is finally starting to feel firm again. No, I have not been working out. I think it's just that my internal organs that were rearranged by Emma's little growing body and random kicks are now, six months later, settled back into place. It's got the familiar little pooch to it that it had back when I used to think I was fat. I'm so happy it has returned! It is much better than having a tummy that feels like a deflated balloon. It may have been that Daniel and I just went on a trip to celebrate our anniversary, or it may just be that I am actually looking good these days, but yesterday I looked in the mirror and I believed it. I look good. I'm not trying to boast, I'm just happy I finally think that about myself. I know I was skinny in high school, and blind too, because I didn't like the way I looked. Now, that I am down to the weight I was in high school, I am so stinking excited. I guess the tough part will be keeping this up. I know I can't eat 4-5 meals a day and still lose weight after I stop breastfeeding.

I've been focusing on looking more like a woman (at least a female), for the sake of my daughter, and because I feel like an adult after having a baby and turning 24, the age I never considered would become a reality for me. I actually bought women's shorts, and felt rather naked walking around in them for the first week or so, because I was used to wearing boy's cargo shorts, which cover way more of your legs.

I do believe I am an adult now. It's been a slow realization, but I am starting to act like one unconsciously. I even had an adult thought the other day. Now before you get all excited, here's what I mean: I had a lot of schoolwork and housework to get done, but I was exhausted from being up all night with the baby. I thought to myself, "I can sleep when I go to bed tonight, I'll work instead of taking a nap." Haha. I thought to myself after that one, "Who are you and where did the real you go?"

23 June 2010

With Nothin' but her Apron on...

Squash Baby Food- with your host, Carla, who has no idea what squash even tastes like:

No, I'm not really cooking naked. Can you guess which song the title comes from?




Start with an acorn squash. They are green and orange and shaped like an acorn the size of your baby's head.


I took the picture because I thought the halves looked like pretty flowers:



You have to scoop out the ickies from the inside. Kinda rough, but mostly like doing the same thing for a pumpkin you are about to carve. Squash must be a pumpkin cousing or something:

Oh, and I had no idea it would look like a face until after I posted the shot.



It said to cut out the stems, I don't think the bottom was considered a stem, but I cut it out anyway. Then you're supposed to put them upside down in a baking pan filled with an inch of water. So these are upside down (sans water) in a pan I have seen people bake stuff in, must be a baking pan right?


Then you cook them at 400 degrees (I think) for 40m-1hr, they are supposed to "pucker" when they are ready, but I have no idea what that would look like. I posted it as a question on facebook and most people assumed it meant turn wrinkly. These turned brown and got really hot so I assumed they were ready:
I have to make the comment: when I pulled these out of the oven, I was offended by the smell. It took me back to a really old building-turned-hostel in Nagoya that we stayed in Sept '09. I was pregnant and the tatami mats were so smelly we had to cancel our future reservations there. This squash smelled like those mats. I wonder, what is tatami made from?


Turn them over and scoop out the squash "meat". I figured I should do it while they were hot and mushy, but it kinda burned my fingers a little, was I supposed to wait for it to cool?



Scooped (Used an ice-cream scoop):

I think if these dried out they'd make decent flower pots, I have no idea how to do that though, but I also have no idea how to cook...



Wondering what I'm doing not playing with her, she comes in to inspect my work:



So then you put this in the blender:


Don't forget a little water and a stick/spoon to poke at it with (not while it's on):


Push the buttons however long it takes to get a puree:


Test some out on your adoring fan(s):


It's good right?


Nope:


Put the rest in ice cube trays, cover with some sort of kitchen wrap and freeze:

I usually leave them in the freezer 24 hrs just to be safe. Then I dump them into a freezer safe storage container. They'll keep 1-3 months. Actually a little longer is ok, but if you go past three months you risk losing nutrients.



If your little foodie falls asleep you'll have time to do something with these:

(But you'll have to clean the gunk off first, which is honestly the nastiest thing I've ever had to do, and I change diapers and wipe snotty noses all day.)


Mix the seeds with a little salt and olive oil (I used some mixed oil that had olive oil in it) and lay out the seeds on aluminum foil on a tray:

(I put cayenne powder on the top part for my husband.)






You are probably wondering, "With such great culinary skills, what did this lady have for lunch?" Try this recipe out- 2 slices of white wheat bread with peanut butter and jelly to taste:






Here you go! After baking in the oven on 275 degrees for 15-20 minutes:


(Don't ask me what the cayenne ones tasted like, you couldn't pay me money to eat them.)





Here are the legit recipes:

Squash Baby Food Recipes -
Butternut or Acorn Squash - Basic Purée
(4)6 months+

1 acorn or butternut squash



1. Cut acorn or butternut squash in half, scoop out seeds
2. Place halves face down in a pan and cover with an inch of water
3. Bake in a 400 degree oven for 40 minutes to 1 hour - be sure the “shell/skin” puckers and halves feel soft then scoop squash “meat” out of the shell
4. Place squash "meat" into your choice of appliance for pureeing and begin pureeing.
5. Add water as necessary to achieve a smooth, thin consistency.



You can also peel the squash, scoop out the seeds and then cut into chunks and boil/steam until tender (like when boiling potatoes for mashed potatoes) then follow steps 4 and 5 - this way is most difficult however and rather time consuming.

http://www.wholesomebabyfood.com/squashbabyfoodrecipes.htm

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Ingredients

* 1 cup winter squash seeds
* 1 tablespoon olive oil
* 1/2 teaspoon salt, or to taste

Directions

1. Preheat the oven to 275 degrees F (135 degrees C). Line a baking sheet with parchment paper or aluminum foil.
2. After removing the seeds from the squash, rinse with water, and remove any strings and bits of squash. Pat dry, and place in a small bowl. Stir the olive oil and salt into the seeds until evenly coated. Spread out in an even layer on the prepared baking sheet.
3. Bake for 15 minutes, or until seeds start to pop. Remove from oven and cool on the baking sheet before serving.

http://allrecipes.com//Recipe/roasted-winter-squash-seeds/Detail.aspx

19 June 2010

Every New Day...

She's changing so much. I just saw a picture of her at one day old and her face is so different now. She's had her very first cold this week, and she's been much more fussy, but I've found extra patience. Where from, I'm not sure. Hope it stays around even after she's better. I never knew I was so selfish before I had an entire little life completely dependent on me. I love her so much now. :)

She's been rolling over more often. I have to watch her even more closely. Especially after falling off the couch and hitting her head, what a night! We went to the ER and they said she was fine, but it still hurt me that it happened. My little one was so scared and screamed so loud, because she had never been hurt before. Poor thing.

She's also laughing, learning peek a boo, biting things (teething? not sure.), following me with her eyes like I'm the most important person in the world, and starting to taste new foods. She hasn't really ingested much of the new solids, but I've had fun learning to make them, and she likes to lick 'em. I love the faces she makes.

Oh, and she's all of a sudden started making the B and M sounds. She's so interesting to listen to. It just clicked over night, and in the morning, instead of ahhhaaaahhhaahaaaaaaaaah, it was BabaaBBbbbaaaBaaaBaaaBaBaBAaaaah. Love it! It gives new meaning to calling God "Abba, Father!"

<3 Carla

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On Distant Shores

I have toiled for countless years and ever felt the cost, and I've been burned by this world's cold, like leaves beneath the frost. On my knees I've crawled to You, bleeding myself dry. But the price of life is more, than I could ever buy.

And off of the blocks I was headstrong and proud, at the front of the line for the card-carrying high-browed, with both eyes fastened tight, yet unscarred from the fight, running at full tilt my sword pulled from its hilt. It's funny how these things can slip away, our frail deeds, the last will wave goodbye. It's funny how the hope will bleed away the citadels we build and fortify. Goodbye!

Night came and I broke my stride. I swallowed hard but never cried. When grace was easy to forget, I'd denounce the hypocrites. Casting first stones. Killing my own.

Then You would unscale my blind eyes and I stood battered but more wise. Fighting to accelerate. Shaking free from crippling weight. With resilience unsurpassed, I crawled my way to you at last. And on my knees, I wept at your feet. I finally believed that You still love me.

~On Distant Shores by Five Iron Frenzy

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